When you get a life threatening disease, you begin to put your life in perspective. Have I made any kind of difference in this world. Did I do anything that made a difference in anyone else’s life. As a Christian this one should be paramount in our lives. Would I even be missed by the world if I were to leave this world. Not my family, I realize I will be slightly missed by those I love, hehe. I’m talking about the rest of the world.
Now like everyone else, I have had dreams of what it would be like to be able to do something that I love. When I was much younger I wanted to be an actor. I did plays in my younger days in high school and at The Greenville Little Theater. I then transitioned into running spotlights for the theater which wound up leading to other spotlight jobs like for the Pablo Cruise concert and several beauty pageants including the Miss SC Pageant one year. Lot of fun. I thought that might be the path I wanted to follow for awhile but alas, that was not to be.
I also wanted to be a rock star. I began taking guitar lessons. I wrote lyrics/poems and sang my songs into a tape recorder that I had. I eventually I realized that I wasn’t that fond or very good at playing the guitar and even less talented in the singing department. And since I couldn’t read or write music, that only left my sappy poems. Of course you may want to reconsider your lyric writing when you start having titles like “She’s Not Bad, Just Slightly Trashy”.
Finally as I grew older and slightly wiser, I took up photography. That was and still is something I immensely enjoy doing. I began taking photos of every church or sporting event I went too. I actually began making some money doing some side jobs. I decided to try and start my own business doing what I loved. Funny thing happened. When it began to be a job, the fun got sucked right out of it for me. I began dreading having to go to a shoot, especially weddings. They scare me to death! That business didn’t last very long. Now I only do pics for myself and family events and my love of photography has been restored.
Another thing I have always wanted to do is write a book. I have always loved to write. I used to write short stories, mainly horror, I was a big Stephen King fan so I naturally leaned that way in my writings. I look back on some of those little stories and they weren’t half bad. A little amateurish of course, but not too awful. I started writing a book titled “The Nightmare Chronicles” which was going to be a collection of horror short stories. I wrote a couple of stories but as it is with most endeavors I set out on, I never finished the job. It’s a problem I have. I have trouble following all the way through on a project.
Now since my illness, I’ve been wondering what I could with this “extra” time I have since I have not been able to work. The thoughts of writing an earth shattering novel has crossed my mind but my attention span for that may not work out. I have began writing this blog which has been very therapeutic as well as very helpful with my writing. Most writers will tell you that the key to writing is to write….everyday….something. I also am writing a movie review blog. Just something to keep me busy. But that is not enough. Suddenly I find that I want to write all of the time. Therefore, I have begun writing, of all things, a children’s book.
Now there may not be much things about children that I can write from any kind of experience that I may have gleaned from my few years as being a grandfather (or G-daddy as I am known by my grandchildren.)
Writers say you should write about what you know. I could write a book about living with cancer, and that may happen sometime later down the road after I have beaten this disease. But for now, I will write stories about my grandson’s and their adventures. I have the first story written. I will have to find me an illustrator as my artistic skills are far below those needed for such a task.
Now is this why I have been stricken with this disease? Something to finally get me to do what I was always meant to do? I don’t have those answers. I just hope to finish what I’ve started….for once. If I do finish, will it change the world? Doubtful. But if it inspires or helps anyone else to go out and find their true calling, then maybe everything was worth it. Don’t let something like cancer force you to slow down and re-evaluate your life.
“Keep your dream alive. Dreaming is still how the strong survive. “–Oliver and Company
“All our dreams can come true if we have the courage to pursue them.” -Walt Disney
“I’ve got to follow that dream wherever that dream may lead.” -Elvis Presley